Category Archives: Motherhood


Be Still

5th June 2015


There have been a lot of days lately, where I catch myself holding my breath. When my brain takes over and becomes so congested with all that needs to get done, worry sets in, my anxiety peaks, and I forget that I have to breathe. This has only begun to happen since I became a mother and I wonder often, is that what motherhood is? Holding my breath and hoping I survive the day? Holding my breath, as I lay my little ones to sleep as not to disturb them and have to start the whole process over again? Holding my breath, as I sit down to stare at the computer and completely forget all that needed to get done during nap time (you know, that one precious golden hour that may or may not happen.)? Holding my breath, through the tantrums and tears, teething and colds, first falls and hurt feelings? When will I stop holding my breath in  anticipation of the worst scenario, and start to let go and be present for every scenario?

I have been trying to focus on being more present in the little moments, and worry about the future less. It is hard. I anticipate too much, my expectations are sometimes too high, and I constantly beat myself up over not being able to meet them. My mind wanders from one worry to the next. Is that crayon toxic? Does this cracker have gluten? What if they don’t nap today, then am I going to be pulling my hair out by days end? Oh no, my all organic ingredient deodorant has toxins that cause cancer and howdidInotknowaboutthistillNOW!!!!! What should I make for dinner tonight? Salmon sounds good. But what if L won’t eat salmon? Ah I’ll just do takeout (as I eye the mound of dishes in the sink), that will be way easier. My floor is a mess, I need to mop. I need to organize! I need to clean out the car, there are diapers in the trunk that have been there for a week.

These are the thoughts that pass through my mind every minute. This is why I am having trouble breathing, because when it gets too much I just stop. I just hold my breath and hope the moment passes with sanity.

Today, I read a verse that gave me pause. I have read it so many times before, but today, it spoke to me differently. “Be still, and know that I am God”, Psalm 46:10. As I read these words I felt myself breath out, the room became quiet, I could hear myself think, and I got it. I finally got it. He has this, HE is in control, and I am not. I can give myself permission to be tired, and breath out and give myself rest. I have permission to be still.

So during those moments that I catch myself holding my breath. I want to redirect my thinking from anxiousness to stillness. In that moment, I want to be still, and know that He is God, and He’s got this.

Review: Woven Wings Natty Geo

7th May 2015



Woven Wings

Natty Geo

62% combed cotton, 38% Egyptian cotton

248 gsm

I have never had the urge to take a chance on a natty, mostly because I am clumsy and stains happen, but since I have had the privilege of hosting the lovely natty geo, I cannot get its creamy goodness off my mind. From the moment it arrived, there was something special about it. The bright white contrasted with a honey-creamed tone, just lifts off the wrap and shimmers in the light. It is elegant, with an edge. It is classy and refined, and a total head-turner. Of all the wraps that have passed my way, this one received the most compliments from wrappers and non-wrappers. It can be dressed up, or dressed down.

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This blend is unlike any other I have ever tried. It is thin yet supportive, and it glides beautifully. It has the perfect amount of stretch and practically wraps itself. After a solid and tight wrap job in a FWCC, It stayed in place without any need to re-tighten during a 2.5 hour walk. I wouldn’t say it is necessarily cushy, but it is definitely not diggy by any means. It felt comfortable, and as my 4 month old little guy settled into a nap, it molded around him and kept him cool and cuddled. The blended cotton adds a little extra something special that I can’t quite put into words, but it has me. This wrap has me. I just love woven wings cotton, its what made me fall in love with wovens, and this doesn’t disappoint. I keep trying to think of a con, but none come to mind…other than I may not reach for it as much if I were just wrapping my toddler. But for where we are at right now, with mostly wrapping on front with an infant, it shines.

During its stay we took this wrap with us to church, the park, shopping, and for our daily walks around the neighborhood. By the end of its stay, I wasn’t ready to part with it. It became a part of our family, it felt familiar, like an old friend coming to visit and you just pick right up where you left off. It easily fit into our routine and we reached for it over our other wraps.

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If you are looking for something thin and airy for summer but also supportive, classy, and simple, with edge, this is your wrap. I can’t wait till its release, because I miss it so much.

Huge thanks to the ladies at Woven Wings for the privilege of testing this beauty.

A review: Pink Nova’s Ocean Morning Kiss

23rd April 2015


PinkNova Babywraps

The Ocean Morning Kiss

62% Finest Egyptian Cotton, 32% Belgium Linen

240 gr/m2

I have recently been given the privilege of testing for a new woven wrap company called PinkNova. The owners, Judith and Ilse, are both beautiful women who have put a lot of care and thought into their wraps down to the packaging. There was such care to detail in the way it was presented, from the tissue paper, personal card with a wrap scrap attached, and a personalized canvas envelope housing for the wrap, making it a perfect little keepsake.

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The linen is a light mint color on a white cotton warp. It is refreshing and summery and is a light enough green that it could go with anything. The kisses design is so fun and lively.

At first touch, the wrap felt rough, which is to be expected for a linen blend in loom state. After a wash, iron, and quick tumble dry, it began to soften up, especially on the “wrong”/cotton side, but was still a little rough and will require more breaking in. I immediately wrapped up my little 4 month old wrappee and he snuggled right into a FWCC. My 2 year old daughter instantly fell in love with the “kisses” on the wrap and of course wanted up as well. I tossed her up in a quick ruck and we boogied around the house. It didn’t budge, and she felt very comfortable. Throughout the rest of the week, we brought Morning kiss along with us to the grocery store, to the chiropractor, to the park, and even took her out to Disney’s Animal Kingdom for the ultimate test.

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The words that kept coming to mind while wrapping are airy, bouncy, and supportive. It is not a smooth, cuddly wrap per se, but it performs wonderfully in hot, humid weather, stays in place, is fun to wrap with, and I imagine will become nicely broken in and softer as time goes on. While it doesn’t glide easily, it truly locks into place once tied. After a precisely tightened wrap job this lovely won’t budge, and will have a nice bounce on the shoulders. I think it would be the perfect summer wrap for those long, hot, summer days. I imagine bringing this along to the theme parks, summer cook outs, and pool parties. It really held up nicely and was breathable after 2.5 hours of wearing in 90 degree weather.

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As this wrap breaks in I know it will become more moldable and softer, and I hope to one day see this wrap again in all its broken-in glory. It has been well loved on during its stay, and we are so sad to see it go. Both my 4 month and 2 year old have really loved on this wrap.

I cannot wait to see more of what PinkNova has in store, because as first impressions go, I am very impressed. These ladies know what they are doing.

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To see more from PinkNova visit their website and Facebook page.

Our Growing Family

3rd April 2015

It has been a year since I wrote anything here. And within that year, our little family has grown from three, to four! We welcomed our sweet son Dax Rhodes, in December, and life has gotten so much sweeter since. I didn’t think it was possible to love a child as much as I do L, but I was so very wrong. This boy has my heart. He is a pure delight and I am so thankful for him.

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The adjustment in going from one to two has been stretching me in ways I didn’t think I could stretch. It has been full of joy and laughter, but also full of a lot of tears and anxiety, dark circles under my eyes, and a few more wrinkles on the forehead. That first month, I didn’t know if I could do it. I felt as though I was in this never ending fog and I didn’t know if I could keep two little people alive and thriving while maintaining some sense of sanity within myself. I am not out of the fog yet, but I am beginning to adjust to life with two, and I am able to see through those foggy days a little more clearly now.

Our life feels so much bigger! And I am truly loving every single minute of it. Keep checking back for more updates, rambles, and photos. I promise it won’t be a year till I write again.

**Photos taken by the lovely Cass of Artful Life Photography.


These Months

12th March 2014

Seconds. Hours. Days. Months. Where do they go so fast?

Our little girl is growing up before me. At 15 months she is at this incredibly fun stage of talking, laughing at silly things, and being friendly to everyone. Our days are full of blown kisses and sweet hugs. Her hair is growing into wispy curls along with her curiosity for all things. I love watching her explore and seek out undiscovered corners of her little world.

I am not the best at keeping up with milestones. I don’t have a baby book filled with firsts, but I take a lot of pictures and document our life when I can find the time.

I mostly want to remember the little things. The way her face lights up as she reads a book for the first time. The way her eyes get big as she sees  something that surprises her. I want to remember the feel of her hands around mine and the way she so sweetly nestles into my arms. Our afternoon walks, our fun adventures…I want to capture it all in my mind for safe keeping.

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I want to remember the not so glamorous things too. The nightly wakings, early mornings, the dark circles under my eyes, and the lethargic foggy feelings. I want to remember how every time I sit down to return an email or cook dinner, two little hands reach up and loud noises begin to come out of my tiny little human. The unclean floors, the dusty shelves, the always dirty dishes…I want to remember those too. They will remind me that its ok to not be perfect and its ok to let things be. Just let things be.

These are my seconds, my hours, my days…my months. Filled with ups and downs and smiles and tears. This heart is full and this life is joy.


A Winter “One”-Derland Themed Party

17th December 2013

We had such a lovely Birthday party for sweet L. I knew I wanted a Winter Wonderland theme with her birthday being so close to Christmas. Plus we don’t really get a Winter here in Florida, so I wanted it to be special, fun, festive and bring winter here to the sunshine state. I was inspired by snowflakes and silver with cool blues, mints, and mauves. I wanted it to have a wintery, icy feel.

I loved getting creative with the food and naming them things like “muddy snowballs” for the meatballs, “Ice chips” for the chips and dip and “snowflakes” for the popcorn. I made all of the party crafts myself out of card stock and I made the serving platters out of antique silver trays glued atop crystal candle holders.


Location: Sawyer Lake Park at Heathrow Country Club, FL

Photography: Artful Life Studios

Food: Friends and Family

Cake: I wanted to make a healthy cake and since we mostly follow the Paleo diet, I made a Paleo smash cake that was so good.

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Dessert Table

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Crafts/Party Favors/Gift Table

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Cake Time! I made L a Paleo coconut vanilla cake with coconut and maple butter frosting. It was soooooo good, and she loved it.

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A lot of L’s little friends came to help celebrate her turning one!

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We had such a great time! And I am still in shock that my baby is 1!!!







12 Months Old!!!

7th December 2013

I can’t believe it has been 12 months. This year just flew by. L is honestly a complete joy and I am so incredibly blessed to be her mother. She is such a good eater with her favorites being beets, kiwi, pumpkin pancakes, and zucchini. She is pulling up on everything, attempts to walk, loves turning the pages in books, and has a great ear for music. She loves to dance and drum and she copies me as I sing around the house. This year has been so eye opening. It has been such an incredible journey of trust and patience, unconditional love and strength. I love being a mother. Happy 1 year my sweet girl.
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11 Months!!!

7th November 2013

11 Months!
Seriously time, sloooooow down! I cannot believe L will be a one-year old in a month. She turned 11 months yesterday and is just about the most adorable 11 month old there is (in my humble opinion). She has two teeth, taken two steps, and is working hard on pulling up to standing. She has this new pouty face that she just started using when she wants something, aaaaand it is pretty hard to say no to. She has such a fun personality and is a total ham. Her favorite things currently are pumpkin pancakes and our dog Sophie.

Phyllis the paper-mache rhino

14th October 2013


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When we found out I was pregnant, I knew I wanted the nursery to have a little bit of an African theme with lots of cute giraffes, elephants, rhinos, etc.. I came across the cutest paper mache giraffe from Anthropologie, and wanted it to hang on the wall of the nursery. I showed it to Ryan, who then proceeded to tell me that he could make one out of paper mache and any other animal I wanted. Whaaaa? Who knew he had a little crafty side that he had been hiding from me. He started with a rhino head and built it out to look pretty realistic! I purchased a French book and we mod-podged the torn pages onto the rhino to look like skin, and then I painted it. It’s pretty awesome. We named her Phyllis. Ryan is already getting started on a giraffe and an elephant. I foresee paper-mache animal heads taking over our home in the future.

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10 Months!!!

7th October 2013

L turned 10 months old yesterday. She continues to amaze me every day and has such an incredibly joyful spirit. She loves scrambled eggs and grain-free banana muffins, she is mobile and into everything. She is working on pulling herself up. She has a thing for penguins and dogs. She makes the funniest noises and loves to laugh. She has our hearts and we fall more every day. I cannot believe in two months she will 1 year old! I am already planning her party and I am super excited about it. She is still not sleeping through the night but I have become okay with that, because well….it goes by fast and I am soaking her in. Even if that means I am up at 3am every.single.night.
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